Watched in 2022

I'm not brave. I just wasn't in the mood to be a disappointment to everybody.

The thing about elephants is, they're scared of bees, which is weird. It's like no one told them they're actually elephants.

I was given a miracle, a second chance. I was so afraid to lose it, that I lost sight of who our miracle was for, and I am so sorry.

How do you ever get a guy to geek?

Oh I ain't gonna crap you up, it ain't easy. You gotta pick up a broken drunk. A real alkie, a two bottle-a-day fool, see?

Pick him up from where?

Nightmare alleys, train tracks, flophouses, you name it. Lot of folks came back from the war addicted to poppy, to booze. Now, opium really sinks its claws, but you reel'em in with booze. You tell'em, "I got a little job for you, it's a temporary job." Make sure you emphasize that, "just temporary, until we get ourselves another geek." You spike it with that opium tincture. One drop per bottle, that's all. But oh, oh now, this is what he thinks is heaven. So, you say to him like this, you say to him, "well, I gotta get me a real geek." He says, "ain't I doing okay?" You say, "like crap you're doing okay. You can't draw a real crowd faking a geek, you're through!" And you walk off. Now, that night, you drag on the lecture, you lay it on thick. All the while you're talking, he's thinking about sobering up, getting the crawling shakes, the screaming, the terrors. You give him time to think that over while you're talking. Then, you throw him the chicken. He'll geek.

Jesus. Poor soul.

Gosh, I wish I could be more like you, and spend my life caring about driving the right car, and wearing the right suits and living in a doorman building!

People have all kinds of sides to them, Mei. And some sides are messy. The point isn't to push the bad stuff away, it's to make room for it, live with it.

Hey, you have her to take care of you, she has no one, you understand? Do you understand? She wakes up every morning with a broken heart and a closet full of his clothes and gets nothing from you but a fistful of crap and not even 10 seconds of genuine empathy.

30 years, you still get sick to your stomach every time you remember how you treated her.

Same old Rusty, you'd buy water from a faucet.
You boys are growing faster than a weed under a faucet.
You could make hot water come out of the cold faucet.
Even the strongest faucets sometimes let out a few drops.

Feels nice, doesn't it? If nothing matters, then all the pain and guilt you feel from making nothing of your life goes away.

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Maybe it's like you said. Maybe there is something out there, some new discovery, that will make us feel like even smaller pieces of shit. Something that explains why you still went looking for me through all of this noise. And why, no matter what, I still want to be here with you. I will always, always want to be here with you.

So what, you... you're just gonna ignore everything else? You could be anything anywhere. Why not go somewhere, where your daughter is more than just, this? Here all we get are a few specks of time where any of this actually makes any sense.

Then I will cherish these few specks of time.

你有冇諗過，我同你嘅人生，都係一部獨立電影。不過你喺我部戲裡面係主角，我喺你部戲裡面可能只係一個配角。

兩個人就算有共同嘅過去，但係心裡面都可能有唔同嘅回憶。

你是犯了錯，但害死我們的人不是你，你只是被利用了。

我們有著獸性，和惡魔性，但同時也有著神性。我們有利己主義的欲求，但也有著愛他主義的欲求。

魏仲廷，你一定要活下去。答應我，你一定要活下去。總有一天，會等到自由的。