Portrait of the lonely ones

"Pain can take you in prison. The ether can set you free."

Palstela: Maybe I'm writing here because I wanna shout, "I'm here"!

School bullies, lunatic parents, rape, violence, loneliness. A group of high school teenagers are looking for salvation through the sad and dreamy songs of a pop singer Lily Chou-Chou.

A hikikomori man...


and the pizza-delivery girl.

Elizabeth Wurtzel



"Young and depressed in america."

Sex, drugs, suicide attempt, existential crisis and depression.

Elizabeth: If only my life could be more like the movies. I want an angel to swoop down to me like he does to Jimmy Stewart in "It's a Wonderful Life" and talk me out of suicide. I've always waited for that one moment of truth to set me free and change my life forever. but he won't come. it doesn't happen that way.

Cecilia Lisbon



"Beautiful, mysterious, haunting, invariably fatal. Just like life."

Doctor: What are you doing here, honey? You're not even old enough to know how bad life gets.
Cecilia: Obviously, Doctor, you've never been a 13-year-old girl.

Chieko Wataya



Chieko: They look at us like we're monsters.

Travis Bickle



Travis: Loneliness has followed me my whole life. Everywhere. In bars, in cars, sidewalks, stores, everywhere. There's no escape. I'm God's lonely man...

- Thanks to Schwarzerabt.

Harold

A teenager obsessed with death who spends his time attending funerals.

Psychiatrist: That's very interesting, Harold, and I think, very illuminating. There seems to be a definite pattern emerging. And, of course, this pattern, once isolated, can be coped with. Recognize the problem, and you are halfway on the road to its, uh, its solution. Uh, tell me, Harold, what do you do for fun? What activity gives you a different sense of enjoyment from the others? Uh, what do you find fulfilling? What gives you that... special satisfaction?
Harold: ...I go to funerals.

Ann



A twenty-three year old woman who finds out that she has very little time left to live.

Ann: Alone. You're alone. You've never been so alone in your whole life.

Ann: Now you feel like you wanna take all the drugs in the world, but all the drugs in the world aren't gonna change the feeling that your whole life's been a dream and it's only now that you're waking up.

Lilja



A sixteen year old girl is left alone by her mother who moves away to the USA.

Lilja: Sorry, but I'm not sure it's a good present. It's windy, there's a mist. It's so cold. And this world isn't that good.


and Volodya



Volodja: I killed myself and went to heaven and yeah, it's really good in heaven. But I regret it, 'cause I wanted to live on earth a little longer. You remain dead for all eternity, but you're alive only for a brief moment.

Dwayne

A guy who takes a vow of silence and hates everyone, everyone.

Dwayne: No, you're *not* my family! I don't wanna *be* your family! I hate you fucking people! Divorce? Bankrupt? Suicide? You're fucking losers, you're losers! No, please just leave me here, Mom. Please, please, please. Please... just leave me here.

Susanna Kaysen



Susanna: I didn't try to kill myself.
Dr. Potts: What were you trying to do?
Susanna: I was trying to make the shit stop.

Susanna: I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.

Tim Travis



Vern: What happened to you?
Tim Travis: What happened to *you*?
Vern: Well, I've been trying to relocate, to a higher plane of life, unsuccessfully.
Tim Travis: You have to cut up and down, not across.
Vern: Yeah, if you don't mind bleeding slowly for 5 hours.
Tim Travis: Why?
Vern: Because there is nothing here that I even remotely care about. I've got nothing to fight for, and if I don't want to live here why should I have to, and I don't care how much better off I am than everyone else, that’s not the point.
Tim Travis: I think you're my new hero.
Vern: You know, one of two things happens when you meet your heroes, either they're assholes, or they're just like you are. Either way you always lose.
Tim Travis: Hey, guns always hit their mark.
Vern: Yeah, only if you really wanna die.

Duncan Mudge

A young fourteen-year old misfit farm boy has to deal with his mother's death.