Heard in 2014

Favorite Song:

Level Up



"So come out
You have been waiting long enough
You’re done with all the talk, talk, talk with nothing on the table
It’s time to come on out
There will be no sign from above
You’ll only hear the knock, knock, knock of your own heart as signal

If you are afraid, come out
If you are awake, come out
Come out and level up

Begin again
Dynamite the dam on the flow
Your body feels the tock, tock, tock of time as it hammers
Lord, we are all cinders
From a fire burning long ago
But here it is the knock, knock, knock of your own heart that matters

If you are afraid, come forth
If you are alone, come forth, now
Everybody here has loved and lost
So level up and love again

Call it any name you need
Call it your 2.0, your rebirth, whatever
So long as you can feel it all
So long as all your doors are flung wide
Call it your day number one in the rest of forever

If you are afraid, give more
If you are alive, give more, now
Everybody here has seams and scars
So what, level up

Let your faith die
Bring your wonder
Yes, you are only one
No, it is not enough
But if you lift your eyes, I am your brother
And this is all we need
And this is where we start
This is the day we greet
This is the day, no other"

Transgender Dysphoria Blues



"Your tells are so obvious
Shoulders too broad for a girl
It keeps you reminded
Helps you remember where you come from

You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every other girl
They just see a faggot
They'll hold their breath not to catch the sick

Washed off on the coast
I wish I could've spent the whole day alone
With you
With you

You've got no cunt in your strut
You've got no hips to shake
And you know it's obvious
But we can't chose how we're made

You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every other girl
They just see a faggot
They'll hold their breath not to catch the sick

Washed off on the coast
I wish I could've spent the whole day alone
With you
With you"

Hickey Avenue



"We talk a lot in crappy cars and restaurants and shitty bars
We ain't trying very hard but we've got that fucking bark
We talked the talk, packed up the shit where the fuckers would be feeling it
If they could hear the epithets and the rejoinders that we spit

We talk a lot and now we're feeling fine
We talk a lot, yeah, we've got nothing but time
And baby you don't know what it's like

So let's keep rolling, rolling out of this shitty yellow light
'Cause we've been trolling, trolling through this endless parade of identical days
Nothing changes, it only rots away

We talk a lot but no one's listening
We've been over this before
Now it's happening again
Now we're squawking with them crows
We hang on wires and watch the city and its busy days below
We talk a lot, it's the only thing we know
It's time to ride all goddamn day and night
What have you got? I want to melt down with time
I'm scratching out my insides

So let's keep rolling, rolling out of this shitty yellow light
'Cause we've been trolling, trolling through this endless parade of identical days
Nothing changes, it only rots away

What are we doing here? Nothing
That's what killing me
That's what's fucking killing me

So now we're rolling, rolling out of this shitty yellow light
'Cause we've been trolling, trolling through this endless parade of identical days
Nothing changes and we've forgotten what this used to be like"

Imaginary War



"Underwater screams, he's so far gone
Drowned out by the unseen powers in unseen ways
Fists clenched to fight, it's a fearless wall
Takes your soul and grinds it all

Let it go, some things aren't meant to be now
Battle sore, why fight a war that's been decided?
Change your course, feel out your enemy now
Realize you can't fight a war without a weapon

Ran off to war but you couldn't find the battle site
Seems you missed your fight
It's imaginary causes
Clauses clog your mind with their spite

Like the preacher man who lectures hard on super-sin
He's soon found out in bed
Too long engaged sleeping with your ideas
Now you're your best source

Arms pinned to your side, your mind's on fire
It's got you firmly in its grasp, a key-less clasp
If you had an edge you just might cut loose
But you've been dulled with age and ease, your muscles seized

Please beware, you should prepare yourself now
Nevermore, don't come to class without your homework
Resign yourself, it takes work to make it here now
Realize you can't fight a war without a weapon

Ran off to war but you couldn't find the battle site
Seems you missed your fight
It's imaginary causes
Clauses clog your mind with their spite

Like the preacher man who lectures hard on super-sin
He's soon found out in bed
Too long engaged sleeping with your ideas
Now you're your best source"

Uniform Fear



"My open mind has faded, all my beliefs persuaded
And all these thoughts are meaningless
Unless I add another twist
These words are not my fault, I think its time
For me to get a piece of what is real
In this lonely town

'Cause every day's the same, I wake up with the sun across my face
And wait for blind perception to take a hold of me

Another day has died, another hour cries
Only for a precision that fades in time
And I won't be caught up in shit
I won't wonder what I miss
I won't stare into abyss and bow my head to cry
'Cause tears won't wipe this from my eyes
Fear is just an excuse for lies

And I'll wait for change, but in the meantime I think I'll sleep
And dream I'm free, away from this void outside of me
I won't fall down, I won't look up
Fear is just an empty space inside our hearts
My thoughts are clean
My sanity is giving into nothing but society

I'll slow down distantly to be put back to sleep
I'll fail to reach all you expect of me

And I can't stand the lies
You're such an animal in that disguise
Can we remember the good on the outside of time?

Voice of Jason Cruz (Strung Out)
'The social appropriation of time, the production of man by human labor, develops with a society divided into classes. The power which constituted itself above the penury of the society of cyclical time, the class which organizes the social labor and appropriates the limited surplus value, simultaneously appropriates the temporal surplus value of its organization of social time: it possesses for itself alone the irreversible time of the living. The wealth that can be concentrated in the realm of power and materially used up in sumptuous feasts is also used up as a squandering of historical time at the surface of society. The owners of historical surplus value posses the knowledge and the enjoyment of lived events. Separated from the collective organization of time which predominates with the repetitive production at the base of social life, this time flows above its own static community. This is the time of adventure and war, when the masters of the cyclical society travel through their personal histories, and it is also the time which appears in confrontations with foreign communities, in the derangement of the unchangeable order of the society. History then passes before men as an alien factor, as that which they never wanted and against which they thought themselves protected. But by way of this detour returns the human negative anxiety which had been at the very origin of the entire development that had fallen asleep.' - Guy Debord (Society of the Spectacle)"

Methadone



"Love like a needle full of methadone
Prudent but not real, left you wanting more

Lipstick track marks bleeding red
Like Montagues and Capulets
For us, child, the stars refuse to shine
Oh well, for us, child, do the stars refuse to shine?

Assume lets stroll along the land
We wound up back here again
Like unstable chemicals
Combining only to explode

What will it take for you to notice?
I am a heart on fire, the dawn walls diffuse
So don’t get close
Trouble and the worth
Am I better off on my own?

Contaminated, quarantined then left alone
A shipment refused, address unknown
A damaged goods they soon forget
The choking dust that we got left
For us all, the stars refuse to shine

Time for vaining like a match
We burn like stars before the crash
But for you there’s still a chance
Just let go

What will it take for you to notice?
I am a heart on fire, the dawn walls diffuse
So don’t get close
Trouble and the worth
I’m better off on my own
On my own

Now there’s nowhere to run
And, yeah, there’s nowhere to hide
There’s nothing under the sun
We haven’t already tried

What will it take for you to notice?
I am a hand grenade, pin already pulled so don’t let go
As we chase the sun my shadow slowly falls down
And without me along, you’re better off and I know
You’re better off and I know
And I know"

Shadow



"Don't matter how rotten you feel
there's a shadow in the morning
splits my head wide
memory keeps me back on my heels
like a cold wind
like a shadow it follows me round

We ride the line between twist and crime
from the angels I seem a distant cry
but this is how I am and you are
and it's real life

I take a soul - then disappear
look for cover
helicopters circle above
we've worn your stone down to a sphere
you keep growing like a shadow
when the sun's going down

We ride the line between twist and crime
from the angels I seem a distant cry
but this is how I am and you are
and it's real life

We ride the line between twist and crime
it seems plain like day as the years go by
that this is how I am and you are
and it's real life"